As the egoic mind begins to identify with a sense of self that is emotionally arrested in childhood, the pain-body energy will intensify. This trauma gets continually re-triggered every single time the pain-body justifies its existence by identifying with its wounded self. It’s as if the pain-body says, “I have been hurt by others and therefore I deserve to be angry.”
When the pain-body becomes active it begins devouring your consciousness. It has succeeded in convincing you that you are the pain-body! Your entire mental process and sense of self is completely aligned with it. And it knows it. The pain-body is now in charge. It has taken over you, your speech, your sight, your perception, and most importantly, your emotions and all the pain that comes with them. And this is when you have, in a sense, become the pain-body. The true you is no longer. And at that very moment (at the time of consumption) the last thing in the world you want is to be at peace. You want war! So what do you do? You go looking for an enemy.
If you have a heavy pain-body, you’ll probably be attracting mental bullies to you like a bar magnet to steel. They will seek you out, come up to you out of nowhere, yell at you from across the street, send hateful emails to you, and this will all happen despite the fact that you do everything in your power to keep out of sight and “fly underneath the radar.”
No matter how much meditation or spiritual practice you do, until you comprehend how the pain-body manifests itself through you and through others, you will be tricked by it and subsequently slip back into unconsciousness every time it resurfaces. The first step is to realize that you have a pain-body inside of you. Think of it as a body or field of energy that prospers through your own anger, hatred, heaviness, anxiety, depression, stress, and fears of impending doom. However it manifests, it will be causing you to re-experience your early childhood trauma which is the time when your pain-body began to manifest.
In the workplace, pain-body bullies will seek out pain-body victims amongst co-workers or subordinates. Sometimes it happens when the bully is a boss or superior who feels that they have earned a “free pass” to mentally bully subordinates. Whatever the case, the bully will act as a pain transmitter who garners temporary relief from their own pain by transferring it on to a receiver, i.e. victim or prey. If you have been a victim and you are truly ready to draw healthy boundaries, then you will benefit greatly from Spiritual Life Coaching.