No matter how much meditation or spiritual practice you do, until you comprehend how the pain-body manifests itself through you and through others, you will be tricked by it and subsequently slip back into unconsciousness every time it resurfaces. The first step is to realize that you have a pain-body inside of you. Think of it as a body or field of energy that prospers through your own anger, hatred, heaviness, anxiety, depression, stress, and fears of impending doom. However it manifests, it will be causing you to re-experience your early childhood trauma which is the time when your pain-body began to manifest.
And so it is like heavy baggage that you carry around with you. The heavier your pain-body, the more “baggage” you are carrying, and the easier it is to set it off and bring on an attack. In a sense, you are like a walking time bomb, hypersensitive and raw to the point where the slightest little derisive “tease” from someone results in a burning tension that consumes every muscle in your body. Anger swells and adrenaline pumps. The anger is projected outward onto the other in an inner dialogue that says something like, “How dare she say that about me? Does she not know who I am?” The ego becomes inflamed and feelings of diminishment and inferiority are immediately compensated by deep feelings of anger and hatred toward the person who initiated the comment.
If you are hosting the pain-body parasite, most of the time it will be dormant. It becomes active when you suddenly feel it very strongly as in the aforementioned paragraph. In a sense, your pain-body has attracted the derisive comment from a friend, co-worker, or partner because it needs to feed on yet another experience of pain.
Think of the pain-body as separate entity that needs food just like you and me. Eventually your pain-body will provoke others to create instant reactions from them. It instinctively knows what works and it knows what buttons to push in every argument. And you won’t be aware that your pain-body will be doing any of this at the time. Your pain-body will make snide and thoughtless comments toward others that they will find terribly offensive but at the time that you say these hurtful things, you won’t be the slightest aware that you’re hurting them. When your pain-body does finally get a reaction from them, it will be in heaven. The whole drama (as long as it can continue) becomes a feeding frenzy. So, the madness that your pain-body musters up is necessary for it sustaining its control over your mind.
So the pain-body is much like a little woodland critter that is constantly on the search for more food. It’s as if it says, “I’m hungry. Where can I find some more pain?” And so perhaps it will begin a conversation by complaining about life and situations that have been recently annoying or problematic. It will say something like, “This situations sucks because that person is incompetent and this other person is just plain stupid and so if they would only listen to me and follow my advice then it would turn things around and everything would be much better.” Because the pain-body is an extension of the shadow, it will constantly be finger-pointing and blaming others for its own problems. In this way, it gives the ego a little boost with a fleeting sense of superiority over those with whom its deriding.
One on one pain-body counseling sessions from a Spiritual Life Coach who is an expert on it can help you to become more conscious of your pain-body so that you can work toward transcending it. Only by observing the pain-body parasite in yourself and others can you begin to loosen the grip that it has over your mind–and body.
Personal Life Coach, Jason Lincoln Jeffers is the founder of The Art of Transformation, a company devoted to teaching Self Realization to the world. His Personal Life Coaching program uniquely combines spiritual wisdom with ego transcendence, holistic wellness coaching, predictive astro-analysis, pain-body counseling, heart-brain manifestation, and relationship coaching.