“Irritable! That's how I regularly feel!” And upon checking with my other half, she agreed. Strange as it may seem we both realized something was not right, separately, on the same day, after 18 months of struggle.
Such was the realisation that the consuming angriness that would rise up without warning was actually a tell-tale sign that I was reaching my end – I was depressed. What a revelation that was; to understand there had been a way out, but that that way out meant admitting my weakness. And then an irony appeared; the instant I confessed my need for help, in that moment – that specific moment – hope drew near.
Irritability is a tell-tale sign of depression, particularly in males.
Something would go ‘wrong ‘ and I might flip into a rage, regardless of if I was alone or nobody else noticed; within me I was beside myself with ire. And at the very same time part of me was asking, in a desperate state of perplexity, “What’s going on here, Steve?!”
Such fits of anger were tiring, and though fortuitously there had been generally no perceivable harm made, there had been much religious trouble that needed to be reconciled. I was out of control and didn't understand how to revive that control.
But the word irritation – or testy – got me wondering. It hit me in a moment of openness of heart and mind. God used that word to reveal his truth. My bad temper with the sign I was depressed. I had fought the best I could, in my own strength, for 18 months. Now was the time to really admit my weakness and seek help.
WHY Outrage Is Sometimes THE SIGN OF DEPRESSION
Why would we get immoderately indignant otherwise, unless our inner world was in flux?
Often outrage is all we have left to rail against a world we can neither understand nor work with. That world, for who knows what reason or reasons, has given us cause to feel confounded in some form. All we have left is outrage. And self-righteousness is the driver, because justice has not been served – in the opinion of the depressed mindset.
Anger reveals sadness for the difficulties of contempt in our lives we don't have any control over. And it does not take a great deal to feel out of control.
When we admit our sadness , however , as we have realized the role resentment is playing, the path to recovery opens up – despite the despair within our circumstance. When there is a need, get professional help to help you, before it is affecting your life and make you ned up in debt for cultivating nasty habits!
Uncharacteristic irritability can be a sign of the unhappiness of depression. Often all we have left is annoyance; but on realizing our desire for help, to admit that, opens a trail to recovery. If we are fair about wrath we could very well see the sadness beneath. Such sadness is an invitation to be explored, to be validated, and to be wrestled with. As soon as we do these things the door to wish swings ajar and then wide open.
Peggy Chen is a mechanical engineer in The East overseeing the implementationg and problem-solving of plants reporting budgeting and proposals. During her off days she likes to do some travelling and sight seeing. Level-headed and frank personality she makes a good pal and expert to folks round her.